REFLECTION: I spent time last week reading about schizophrenia, the diagnosis, systems, cases, and asking what people's perception of the disease was. what I found interesting is that the disease is still very much a mystery and seems to be very person. This made it difficult to form a base to build off of in terms of imagining and becoming a character. I picked up on some key generalizations and used my artistic license. I liked the idea of portraying the feeling isolation, and the fear one must feel when not being able to tell the difference between reality and delusions or fantasies. So instead when shooting my concept became more complex I was trying to be someone who was present but was trying not to be. I didn't want to shoot with anything in the foreground to ensure that my selection was varied and not repetitive, I think that I achieved this.

Another concept that I considered was that this character was reliving a memory, I wanted the blurriness to look as if it could be either a delusion or reality. The image I choose to use from this series could almost be how the voyeur sees themselves, with this idea this may in fact appear physically possible, as some patients suffer from both multiple personality disorder and delusions. This almost appears as if some phantom character or thought is speaking to the subject.

I much prefer these after photocopying them. The contrast is much starker and the quality appears more grainy, personal, and destroyed.